I Was Nyx.
With my first post as ChariotChaser here at Blogger, I would like to set the record straight on an old thorn in my side.
On the website and podcast MidnightSpookhouse.com, I was the podcaster/reviewer Nyx from March 2015 - February/March 2016. My last podcast was November 8, 2015, Episode 8: It's Halloween! I was also featured on the Radcast (Retro After Dark) for roughly the same time period. The last conversation I had with Spookhouse before I was pushed out and he went no-contact with me was April 29th, 2016.
Things started out great, and we all had fun times, "we" being Spookhouse himself, Miss Massacre, his girlfriend, Minus (Spook's longtime friend from high school and perhaps beyond, I'm not sure if they went to elementary school together), and Ryan, a mutual friend among the majority of us and in-law to Miss Massacre. Minus and Ryan occasionally joined in for recordings, and Ryan would go on to be a long-term podcaster with the project after I was gone.
When I first started the project, I had a full-time job, and worked Monday through Friday, leaving my weekends free. I was able to podcast during my free-time, but I lived 2 hours away each way, so it was difficult for me to record in person. Therefore, I often called in, though I did record in person at least once, for our Halloween episode. Eventually, I took on full-time college courses, as well, in order to further my career (I worked in the medical office field at the time).
I still enjoyed doing the podcast, but things did eventually become tense between Spookhouse and myself as my schedule became tighter. We often found ourselves at odds. I found his language toward me abusive and I imagine he found my sarcasm grating. I was also spending time on the weekends with people he was at odds with, which only worsened the situation. I often found myself in tears at his harsh words and tried to get him to understand my side of things, to which he would only mockingly laugh at me and say things such as "Ha! It's no wonder you struggle." Eventually, what was left of our friendship fell apart, he pushed me out of the Midnight Spookhouse and Retro After Dark projects, removed me from all of his social media, and I no longer heard from him.
My intent in this article is to expose the fact that there is a review that I wrote that was put in someone else's name after I was pushed out, and I have proof that I am the original author. I have to admit that going through a lot of conversations I had long deleted - but found a way to recover - there's been a lot of pain, at least for me. I can't speak for anyone else. But even in some of the last conversations with Spookhouse - who I ended up blocking after some catching up with 2 days after my wedding in 2018, a conversation that devolved, yet again, into what I felt like was more abuse, or a misunderstanding, who knows - it's just painful. And maybe none of this should be in the public eye. None of this should have ever happened. It started out as a fun, enjoyable podcast and a group of friends working on a collaborative project of reviewing and podcasting. Perhaps if we were going to do such a project, we should have kept it business only and left being friends out of it. Who knows. Sometimes I miss the good times, but I don't miss finding myself in tears with my heart aching, wishing the person I knew as my friend wasn't tearing me apart from the inside out and making me feel like a terrible person, no matter what I did or said. But I imagine his response would be something along the lines of, "Oh, you're making everything about yourself again? I always made time for you. I can't say you did the same for me." That would be my guess. Though I can't entirely speak for him.
Anyway, here is a link to the review, as of this writing:
In case it has been taken down by the time you get to it, I have screenshots:
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